un: pirouette

"I had the craziest dream last night about a girl who has turned into a swan."

Everyone wants perfection. I guess that's the moral of the story. Everyone wants to be perfect, but no one can be perfect. It's impossible. So, why do we still chase perfection? I guess it's because perfection drives us. It takes us from one step to the next, getting us closer to excellence, but we never really do reach it. And besides, what fun would that be? I'd rather spend all my time chasing perfection. I'd imagine life would become dull if we had nothing to chase.

So, what am I chasing? What perfection am I trying to attain? Honestly, I don't know. Is it possible to chase perfection when you don't know what you're chasing? I believe so. I think I would be the White Swan, working endlessly to achieve the impossible. Everything I do has to be meticulous, but who am I kidding? Everyone who knows me knows that I'm probably one of the laziest people they know. That's the funny thing. Because once I find something I love or something I believe is worth doing, I'll work my ass off. So, I guess I'm not really the White Swan, nor am I the Black Swan. Can I be the Grey Swan? I mean, hey, someone should tell Tchaikovsky that the world isn't all black and white.

And who knows, maybe perfection is possible. But maybe it comes at a price. Of course, Nina would agree with me. Maybe that's the punishment you get for trying to attempt the impossible.

No one was meant to be perfect.

xxjohnny.